Trying Not to Panic

I just received word from my husband that he has been officially accepted for grad school! It's something I know he's been wanting to do for quite some time, and he was finally able to get it worked out. His employer will pay for everything - including his salary while he's schooling. (Without that this wouldn't happen right now, as I'm not going back to work any time soon.)

Yes, I'm happy for him and proud of him. And, yes, I know it's a good thing and it's what needs to happen.

So, why the panic?

Because while he can do most of his work online, he is required to be on campus for at least one semester!

The school he has chosen (because of the program they offer) is 6 hours away from home.

Get it now?

Yup. And I thought his 30-day deployments were hard! Those will seem like nothing by this time next year! :-( I cannot imagine a full semester without him here! How am I going to get through it? Don't get me wrong, I know I will, but thinking about it just freaks me out right now. I was going to try to get off the Zoloft this year, but now I'm thinking maybe I'll wait. Yes, I know, it's a crutch, but with the prospect of going it alone for three months causing me near panic I don't know that I wanna fend for myself yet!

Again, I know this is what needs to happen now. I know he is following God's will by doing this. I know it's right. I know we'll be OK. But, man, does it scare me.

Plus, I can't believe I'm admitting it publicly, but there's also the fear of him being away at college for a semester - alone. Yes, I trust him - we wouldn't have recently celebrated our 11th anniversary if I didn't. But, I know sometimes people surprise you - and not in a good way.

I know that I just have to trust God. I will be prayerfully approaching the rest of this year. I need God to sustain me, but - more importantly - I also need God to be with my husband. I need Him to protect my husband in every possible way - spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally, sexually, and anything else that might need protection. Please, my dear friends, pray with me! There is strength in numbers. God says so Himself! If you are praying with me, please comment so I know. It's always comforting to know when someone's joining me in praying for things like this!

And now we're back to love ...

Whatever I did seems to have worked! :-) The feed is working again. So, frustration - good-bye! :-) MUCH better! Thanks for "listening" to me complain about this! LOL

Oh, and in case you're wondering, DH got home later than expected - but before Abby went to bed. And he did finally call about an hour before he got home. It's better than nothing, right?

Good night, all, and God bless!

Technology and I have a love-hate relationship

I'm trying to curb my frustration right now, as it's about to boil over! And, yes, as the title hints, it's all related to technology. No, none of it is a big deal - at least not in the big picture. It's just frustrating the hell outta me, to say the least!

My current issue is this blog. I love it, but or some reason my feed isn't working right. I don't know enough about how feeds work to really troubleshoot it, but I've tried anyway. As some of you have seen, I posted a test post, tried messing with things, then deleted the test post. Then I discovered that my test post DID go through - at least through Twitterfeed - not sure about Networked Blogs on Facebook. The latter is what caused me to look into this in the first place. It hasn't pulled any posts by me in a long time. And I'm not sure why. I can't figure it out. I was messing with FeedBurner, which is what I use to share my blog - it allows people to subscribe via e-mail, which is what I'd wanted. I don't even know if that's working properly. Anyway, with all of my messing around with that, I got to where I couldn't figure out what I was doing - so I thought I'd get some support. Well, FeedBurner recently was acquired by Google ... I went through their annoying help menus, and finally found a "contact us" link. But, that didn't take me to a contact form - NO! That took me to the answer to some other question about FeedBurner. So, either their link's not properly coded, or they're just wanting to give their "customers" the most annoying runaround EVER! That pretty much is what led to me being EXTREMELY frustrated. And also what led to this post - hopefully this will feed as it's supposed to and the frustration will disappear - HOPEFULLY. I know better than to hold my breath, though! ;-)

This, of course is on the heels of other frustrations that are technology-related, the most recent of which anyone who's seen me on Facebook recently knows all about! Long story short: One of the apps, a game, was inaccessible to me for almost a full week. Given that I was stupid enough to pay for extra features on that game, I was quite ticked. If I pay for access to something, I had better damn well be given the royal treatment. It's now up and running - for now. It would've been MUCH less aggravating if this wasn't the second consecutive week this happened! Not to mention that the game would load, and I'd be greeted by a message saying my ACCOUNT was TEMPORARILY unavailable - and to check back in a COUPLE OF HOURS. I don't expect to wait DAYS for access when the error says HOURS.

There are other frustrations I could add to this, but I'm going to stop now. My wonderful (dripping sarcasm here - perhaps PMS is early?) husband is working a VERY long day. Which is fine, but he'd told me he's hoping to be back before the kids go to bed - that's in 30 minutes. No call, no text message, no nothing. That's not a good sign! More than anything, I'm irked about not having received any contact from him as of yet. If he's not going to make it, fine - just call and tell me. It's like being in limbo, which I HATE!