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Life sucks sometimes

I just posted a huge long post about my childhood over on Vox. So, if you're on Vox and you have access, check it out. If not, I guess you're just SOL!

And now I've forgotten what I wanted to say here. Darn kids! ;-)

Oh, yeah. The title. For once I'm glad I have to make a title! LMAO

DH is a prick. A fucking prick. At times like these, I hate him. I know, awful - and probably indicative of how immature I am. But, hey, too damn bad. That said, he's just a know-it-all prick.

We have a Roomba (love that thing) - well, two, actually. The first one never charged properly, and we thought we got a dud. I sometimes wondered if the outlet it was plugged into had something to do with it. Sometime later, we acquired our newest Roomba. We had it plugged in elsewhere and it worked great. Recently, we plugged it into the outlet we had the first one plugged into. And now, the battery won't hold a charge - same problem as the first one. I suggested to DH that the outlet might have something to do with it, and he IMMEDIATELY shoots me down. He says no, the battery's just spent. They have a limited number of charge cycles, etc. Blah, blah, blah. OK, I don't deny that could be part of it, but what about the outlet? TWO Roombas met an untimely death after being plugged into that same outlet. Sure, we have had this Roomba for a couple of years now, but it just seems too coincidental, kwim? If this happened while it was plugged into any other outlet, I'd take what DH's explanation is and agree 100%. But, I see a pattern. Sure, we've only had two Roombas, but both were plugged into that outlet. Now, the first one we never plugged in anywhere else, so it is possible that it was a dud. But, you still can't deny the similarities here. This whole thing resulted in a HUGE fight. Funny, huh?

No, it's NOT about a stupid vacuuming robot. Not at all. It's about him ALWAYS dismissing my opinions. He does this more often than not. Won't even consider my thoughts on stuff like that. Apparently he knows EVERYTHING and I'm just a stupid idiot who knows nothing. Stupid jackass! So, I'm mad - well, mad because I'm hurt. He won't even consider my thoughts b/c I haven't tested 50 Roombas to see if it really is a pattern or whatever. Stupid fucking prick. Jackass jerk. And, of course, when I try to talk to him about this, he focuses on the Roomba, not what I'm trying to explain to him. I'm trying to tell him it's not about the Roomba. It's about him making me feel like my opinions and ideas about things are nothing worth considering - like he thinks I'm stupid or something. While it's not meant to be, it's VERY hurtful. (And, yes, I'm like an injured animal - I say all sorts of things, hence what you're reading here. Better here than hurling shit at him, right?)

Still here

I have been away just b/c I'm so dang busy. I know - I do it to myself. I'm an owner of a Web site, and a co-admin on another. Then I joined yet ANOTHER board (as if I needed it) recently and have been spending a ton of time there, too. I'm considering leaving Mommy Zone, as it's really not the same since Kelly left. I can't decide, though. Most of my friends have met up elsewhere, but there are a couple of women I still like talking to. But, it reminds me of when Mommy-Talk was taken over by Gail, and I couldn't stay. I couldn't respect the leadership, and knew that meant I couldn't remain there, either. And I had CLOSER friends - women who I'd known since I was pg with Abby - that didn't follow me anywhere! :-( Makes me so sad. And some won't even return my e-mails! :-( Oh, well. I do think that I will have to leave MZ, but I'm going to wait. They're going to be changing the name/url, etc. So, that'll be the perfect opportunity.

Well, I need to get to bed, so I'm gonna go. I'll try to be back soon.

I hate titles

I've never been good at titles - or writing headlines, for that matter. (I've written countless headlines, despite my lack of skill!) Unless I'm setting out with something specific I want to say, the titles always stump me.

So, I haven't been feeling well. I was dead tired over the weekend, and Monday started getting a sore throat. Yesterday I had a headache (which is still here), chills, etc. Surprisingly, no fever - but I'm not complaining! ;-) DH came home early so I could get some extra rest, which I REALLY appreciate. I got a short nap in, and that made a huge difference. Now, I still have an icky throat, and I can feel something in my lungs. Fun, fun!

Me again

I hadn't intended to be away this long. Sorry. Although, I don't think anyone's even reading this so perhaps I'm only letting myself down! LOL Still, this can be therapeutic, so I really should do it more. Now to explain my absence.

It's been a helluva couple of weeks. This past week I've been spending most of my time (when the kids allow, of course) helping a dear friend of mine launch a new Web site. It's phpBB based like mine is, so I've done most of the modifications and stuff. That has been fun - I like doing stuff like that. (Yes, I know, I'm a nerd! LOL) I've even taken a bit of a hiatus from my own site in my efforts to help her get things up and running. I let my Staff know, as I felt they should be aware of my whereabouts. The good thing is I have good people on my site, and me being gone (or in much less than usual) for a while isn't going to cause it to fall apart. I tried to get on a minimum of once per day. I must've done pretty well, as no one seemed to notice my absence.

I have since been made one of four Admin on my friend's site. I haven't let anyone on my site know that yet. Do I have to? I don't think it's a conflict of interests. My site is for Christian women; the new site is for moms. We aren't what some would call "competitors" or anything. Plus, I'm one of FOUR Admin there, all of which can do techie stuff. I might say something at least to my staff. But, I don't want to cause any drama. I know one of my staff members is on the new site, and so far she hasn't said anything about it to me. (If anyone DOES read this and you happen to be on my site, please comment here to let me know your thoughts.)

Well, laundry beckons. So, I must go for now.

I'm still here

Sorry to be so quiet for so long. I haven't intended to be away. I was hoping I'd actually be able to write at least once per day. But, well, I got caught up. I've installed an arcade on my site, and it's taking up my time. No, I'm not spending all of my time playing the games! LOL (Although, I do have to test each one to make sure it works and then properly submits the score.) It's time-consuming to find the games then install them. After that, it's organization and actually activating them on the site. Finally, test. I have one - Marvin's Lucky 13 Solitaire (or something like that) - that works fine, until you go to submit the score. Then I get an error - GAAH! Can't a girl get a break? Then, I took a LOOOOONG time tracking down a couple of my favorites: Sandwich Stacker and Traffic Control. Neither was formatted for this particular arcade, but I was able to get someone to do SS for me. Now to just get TC converted. I wish I knew coding better! :-( I am proud of myself, though, for what I am able to do on my site. I'm learning a little bit of html and php coding. I would love to be able to create awesome Web pages and/or forums. Maybe someday I'll look into some courses on Web design or something.

Before I forget - check out my new Meez! :-)

Well, it's late - I'm off to bed. Hopefully I'll write tomorrow! ;-)

Phew!

I saw my allergist yesterday, and he said it doesn't sound like an allergy to food! :-) PHEW! I'm relieved - I don't want food allergies, thanks anyway! ;-) Since I'd posted that last bit, I thought I'd make sure to update.

Food Allergies

I'm starting to suspect that I might have a food allergy. I've noticed a bit over the past few years that sometimes when I eat my tongue gets numb and/or tingly. That can't be good. I thought maybe it was a fluke for a while, but I've noticed it more lately. The current culprit appears to be Athenos hummus. I LOVE that stuff, so it makes me sad. I tried to contact my allergist to see if I can get an appointment with him, but they're closed this afternoon. So, I have to wait until Monday to call. But, food allergies aren't something I want to mess around with - especially not ones that make my tongue feel funny. (I've heard that's the kind that can cause the throat to swell.) I have no idea what it could be - but I did recently find out that my mom's uncle died from an allergy to celery, of all things. I don't think it's celery, but hopefully my allergist can help me sort this out. Plus, I have to worry about whether this will affect my kids - and how. Ugh. What fun! I guess it could be worse; at least I know it's NOT peanut butter or other things that I eat much more regularly! ;-)

OUCH!

I hate headaches. I hate that I get them somewhat regularly. WHY? I'm not sure how often they've been bothering me - probably weekly, on average. It sucks. I hope and pray that my daughters don't inherit this problem - or my son, for that matter. I'd hate for any of my descendants to get this. It's horrible - and so not fair!

Well, I'm sorry to be so boring lately. I guess I don't generally have much to talk about. But, I am sure at some point I'll be a bit more fun to read. Until then, thanks for bearing with me! LOL I sure hope I'm not as dull in person as I am here!

Conflicted

I'm conflicted about what to do with this blog. I want to be able to express myself 100% without worrying about hurting anyone's feelings. But, I also want this to be open to being read. Will anyone find this if I don't point them in the direction of it? I'm conflicted b/c I don't want to shut my friends out, but I don't want to feel like I can't talk about ANYTHING either, kwim?

For example, I recently had a bit of a skirmish with some people on my Web site. Yes, my Web site. I own a domain and board on said domain. I thoroughly enjoy it. I never thought coding and stuff would be so fun! LOL I know, that makes me an ubergeek, but I can handle that label! It's like learning another language - but much more scary. I can make or break my board just by doing one small thing with coding. I love being able to use it as a creative outlet.

Anyway, back to the skirmish. Let's just say that some of my "staff" conducted themselves in a way that I thought wasn't appropriate. Nothing major, in fact I've learned that no one outside of The Team was aware that anything was going on. I just felt a situation could've been handled in a better manner. Now, my original approach was a bit bad, and I did apologize for it. Things do seem to be worked out now, except that one of the individuals isn't getting over it! I am FRUSTRATED with this situation. I can't have the "staff" divided - a house divided against itself cannot stand. How much time do I give her to work through her emotions? When do I say "enough is enough, snap out of it or step down"?

Crap. Baby's waking up. I gotta go take care of her. I'll try to add more to this post later.

Yahoo Messenger SUCKS

I use Trillian for all of my IM needs. It's great. No complaints there. I hate Yahoo Messenger - in case you couldn't tell! LOL I get CONSTANT spam via YM. And I can't figure out how to stop it. I block it when it comes through, but I don't want it in the first place. I'd like to be able to change YM so all I get are IMs from people on my contact list. There has GOT to be a way to do that, but I have no idea how. So, I decided to nix it all. No more YM for me. I've got AIM, MSN Messenger, and ICQ. I think I'll be OK! ;-)

It's good to be home

The family and I had spent the weekend with family - hence my absence. It's so nice to be home now. Of course, it's always nice to be home. Home sweet home - yes, it's a cliche, but it's true! ;-)

We were visiting my husband's family, who live downstate from us. That means at least 5½ hours on the road. NOT much fun. Thank God for factory-installed DVD systems! ;-) The kids loved seeing their grandparents, and our oldest was sad to leave today. Poor thing. I know she misses her family. We don't really live close to family, except a cousin of my husband. We don't see her much, so it's not really like she's here. I think we see my family (who are 2½ hours away) more often.

I do this thing on my Vox blog called unconscious mutterings. It's a weekly thing. I wish I could say I did it weekly, but, well, I don't. I think I'm lucky if I remember to do it on a monthly basis. But, it's fun - word association. But, today's list had Chicago. That made me sad. That's where I was born and raised (not downtown, but in the 'burbs). My family (for the most part) is still there and I miss them all dearly. I ache to see them and be near them - and it's worse since my kids were born. I wish we lived closer - and I hate knowing that without an act of God, there is NO WAY we could afford to live there now. Here we own a house and I'm able to stay home with my kids. Unless God were to pull off some HUGE surprise, we'd never be able to do that anywhere near my family. :-( It makes me so sad. I miss them so much.

Let the Tweaking Begin

I could have a ton of fun playing with this template. I wasn't too fond of the bright pink background, so I chose something that was easier on my eyes. I'd like to REALLY customize the colors eventually, but that'll have to wait. We're getting ready for a LOOOOONG drive to go see my husband's family. So, I don't have the time to tweak much. But, I'm happy to be done with the background that came with this template. Don't get me wrong - it's a pretty template. But, well, I'd be happier if there was a PURPLE template! But, for now, this will do.

Blame Mommy Brain

I had a bunch of stuff that I wanted to write. I thought of it last night - before falling asleep. (That seems to be where I do most of my thinking that leads to any good ideas.) I was hoping to remember, but no luck. I hate that. I thought I'd finally have something interesting to say! LOL

I have a child who won't stop talking. I love her to death, but sometimes I just want a little peace. Or, like now, I'll be doing something that requires a little bit of concentration, and that'll be when she wants to talk most! I suppose it's my fault for not waiting until nap time or after they go to bed for the night.

OK. I'm done rambling for now. Back to your regularly scheduled programming! ROFL

This could be fun

I'm liking what I see here. I can customize this to quite an awesome degree! :-) How fun! I love my Vox blog, but this could be even better. I still have to decide how much privacy I want, though. One nice thing about Vox is I can decide privacy levels on a post-by-post basis. Can't do that here; it's all or nothing. I'm generally a private person, so the thought of allowing anyone to read my thoughts is a bit scary. But, will anyone read this if I don't leave it public? I don't intend to invite people here. I truly want to be able to write whatever I want and not worry about offending anyone. If I point friends and loved ones this way, it kinda makes that point moot. I don't mind if any of them reads it, but if I point them here, perhaps I'm inviting problems. I dunno.

Yes, I do have bigger problems than what to do with this blog! LOL Just remember, this is called "Ramblings and more" - there's a reason for that! ;-)

Testing

I'm just checking things out for now. I won't be writing much very often, but when I need somewhere to be away from it all, this is it. I'm not sure if I'll leave this public or make it more private. We'll see. Anyway, I'm playing with the fonts for now, so that's why I'm writing this.